Powerless

The word powerless has been running through my mind over the last few months. I am powerless over so many different things. I am powerless over the weather, I am powerless over a traffic light not changing fast enough for my taste. But when I am powerless over people that are very near and dear to my heart, then I struggle with it.

There is someone in my life, that I love dearly, and this person is struggling with personal issues. I am a "care taker" and I always try and solve peoples problems, or at least try and help. This person doesn't know why they are feeling the way they are. Feeling displaced, like they don't fit in with life anywhere. And I feel helpless because I cant fix it for them.

I know I am not suppose to take on any ones feelings or emotions, but it is hard not to. Their mood is affecting my mood, and I cant just walk away from it. This is where the powerlessness comes in. I am powerless over this persons thoughts, actions and behaviors. I am powerless over the fact that they are becoming irresponsible. I am powerless over the fact that they keep their word to everyone but me. I am powerless. But I am NOT powerless over who I allow them to treat me.

I am learning the hard way to set boundaries with this person so I no longer get hurt. I am starting to feel better now that I got that off my chest, but the fact remains the same...I am powerless.